The Reason Why I Came Back
I studied for several years abroad, and finally decided to come back to my country. Leaving me wondering - is this right? Should I continue to pursue my masters and look for a job abroad? Why do I have such a courage to start my career at my own home country, where the pay is terrible and opportunities are expensive? It requires lots of connection and much more time to get me where I want to be.
I don't know.
However, I do know that I want to do more than merely finding a job to pay my bills. I want to do something more than simply fitting myself into the 'mold'. I want to disrupt the system our society has created to judge ourselves. I would like to create an impact and open up opportunities in this developing country, in my home.
A part of me wants to do more in my own country. It is a developing country and I would like to be part of its development.
I just decided to pack my suitcase and came back here. Yet now I find myself lost. I don't know where to start. Find a job? Yes I did that, but I still don't feel challenged, all I did is helping a giant corporate earn more money. Should I create a start up? Honestly I don't have the guts for that. I want to create a start up in the renewable energy sector but it's a tangled mess. Travel? It doesn't make me happy at the moment. I am doing nothing! Also, I feel lonely here. Meet new people? They just seem to be busy on their owns, resulting in a series of 'hello's and 'good - bye's in no time. Maybe it's me. But what should I change? One thing for sure, I should stop worrying too much and enjoy this bumpy ride.
I don't know.
However, I do know that I want to do more than merely finding a job to pay my bills. I want to do something more than simply fitting myself into the 'mold'. I want to disrupt the system our society has created to judge ourselves. I would like to create an impact and open up opportunities in this developing country, in my home.
A part of me wants to do more in my own country. It is a developing country and I would like to be part of its development.
I just decided to pack my suitcase and came back here. Yet now I find myself lost. I don't know where to start. Find a job? Yes I did that, but I still don't feel challenged, all I did is helping a giant corporate earn more money. Should I create a start up? Honestly I don't have the guts for that. I want to create a start up in the renewable energy sector but it's a tangled mess. Travel? It doesn't make me happy at the moment. I am doing nothing! Also, I feel lonely here. Meet new people? They just seem to be busy on their owns, resulting in a series of 'hello's and 'good - bye's in no time. Maybe it's me. But what should I change? One thing for sure, I should stop worrying too much and enjoy this bumpy ride.
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